Calm and no ‘carrying on’
I’m not very good at being calm.
By nature I’m what you call ‘highly strung’.
While I’d like to think I’ve got a little calmer since becoming a mother, I’m still more prone to the the high octane reaction variety of ‘carry on!’, than ‘as you were, carry on old chap’ type of calm.
When you’re passionate about a lot of things. When you’re a storyteller. When you get excited about life, you react accordingly. I react accordingly.
My inner drama queen comes to life and most of the time, most people (not all, but many), love my positive reactions.
A room can literally come alive with my enthusiasm. I know this.
On the flip side though, when things don’t go my way, or when life or events feel out of control, the reaction is just as extreme, but in the ‘henny penny, the sky is falling’, headless chicken kind of way, and no amount of urging to ‘calm your farm’ will bring me back from the edge.
Yes I can carry on.
Yes I know it’s bad for me and the people around me.
Yes I am getting better at it…but moderating the intensity of my negative reactions is an ongoing challenge.
So today I’m going to take time out to find my inner calm…meditate…while embracing the enthusiastic and passionate parts of my drama-queen that make me…ME.
‘Calm’ is today’s word out of the jar. Read more about my Out of the Jar project here.
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